Friday, October 16, 2009
Today is the 16th, and Ayiera is 25 months old now.
It doesn't sound exciting to me because we've gone through many shits this month, a lot of crying, hating, losing hope, cursing, shouting, scolding vulgar etc. Problems by problems coming our way, and you seem to be my biggest enemy this month. Do I have to blame on my mood swing? Nah, I don't think so. You have done all the nasty things behind my back, and you have successfully make me fall into your trap. But why am I still here with you? Why do I even gave you chances when I know that someday, it will happen again? Why do I still even care for you when I know you've done the biggest mistake in relationship? That's because I love you with all my heart and soul, but yes, I get trash in return. Maybe these are tests from Allah. I'll just have to accept whatever fate I'm facing, with a fake smile on my face. Sometimes, I wonder, why do these people hurt their loved ones? Maybe they don't deserve the love that we've showered for them all these while. But anyway, I don't wanna brag about this matter, cos for what I know, he promised me not to do stupid mistakes again. But I'm not going to trust you fully till you prove to me that you can be trusted.
On a brighter note, yes, he may have hurt me countless of times this month, but I'm relieve he actually begged me not to leave him and stayed with me. Thank you so much for being with me this far, for tolerating with my nonsense, for being my teddy bear to hug, for lending your shoulder to cry on, for all the sacrifices that you've made for me and for us. I hope you really changed and learn your lesson cos I really don't wanna see us falling apart. We have to face this together, make sacrifices for each other, but if you're not cooperating, then I guess, the relationship might come to an end. So please, I beg you, this is the last chance given to you, treasure it and please THINK before doing things. I don't wanna be a broken-hearted girl no more.
You just have to know that I love you, and only you. No one else.
Once again,
HAPPY 25TH MONTHSARY, AYIERA!
