I'm all speechless. I've got no idea what to do. Am I in the wrong? Yes, I am. But I swear to the name of Allah, I've got no intention to make anyone hurt. What the hell am I doing? I'm weak now. I cannot take this any longer. I'm too weak to carry this burden on my shoulder. It's all my fault.
Firstly, I never had any relationship with other guys when I'm with you, but you didn't trust me. I appreciate every love you had showered to me, but you didn't trust me. I love you one and only, but you didn't trust me. Why? I know that I lied to you, that's the reason why I'm here to apologise for my wrong doings. I realised my mistake.
I chatted with him, asking him to update his blog. Okay, I make a very huge mistake. Supposingly, I promised you that there's no single guys in my msn contact list except for cousins and your lil' brother, but I lied. But now, I already deleted every guys already, except your lil' brother and my familes. Trust me this time round, check my msn account. I beg you. I know you don't love me anymore. And why do you have to involve Mama and Papa in this problem? You know that I love them so much, and now you want them to hate me? I'm all speechless.
To Boyfriend:
I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart. I didn't mean to hurt you. And I lied because I don't dare to stress you up in camp. Please forgive me. I didn't realised that I hurt you too much. I'm here to seek for your forgiveness. That's all. Trust me that I love you one and only.
To Mama and Papa:
Atyra minta maaf. Atyra tak bermaksud nak menyakiti Mama dan Papa. Mama dan Papa mesti da tak sayang Atyra lagi. Atyra redha. Atyra malu dengan perbuatan Atyra. Atyra betul2 minta maaf. Walau ape pun, Atyra tetap sayang Mama dan Papa.
I type this with tears. Please forgive me. And apology from me for those who involved in this problem. I had enough of crying. I'm dead.
I'm all speechless. I've got no idea what to do. Am I in the wrong? Yes, I am. But I swear to the name of Allah, I've got no intention to make anyone hurt. What the hell am I doing? I'm weak now. I cannot take this any longer. I'm too weak to carry this burden on my shoulder. It's all my fault.
