Thursday, October 30, 2008
It's time to get my blog updated. Oh well, stop asking me how's Os.
Special thanks to Shaa and Ross for always being there to listen to all my daily rants and complaints about school and life and friends and everything. I know you girls keep telling me the same damn thing over and over again, but I never bothered to actually, listen. So I'm sorry about that. I'm really stubborn and naive. Lol, I know. Okay whatever it is, a big thank you to you both. If it weren't for you girls, I would have been a real complete mess. Seriously. Think about it. I got no other friends in school, you know. Okay I have lah, in fact more than you girls ( Lmao, sorry ah, but eh true what ), but they know shit about me like you girls do. I mean, excluding my Lil' Nutz babes. I tell you both, like everything, you know. It's way way different. They're just friendly friends, while you girls are like, always-been-there-for-me friends. I know it sounds cheesy but I don't know other ways to describe it. Hahahahha. But really what, riiiiiiight. So anyway yeah, thank you, again.
I don't even know if you're reading this, but I hope you are. Or at least, can somone make him read this?
I'm sorry.
The only reason I even bother to type all this down is because I care and you mean a lot to me. I don't want you to think that I'm like any other girl you've dated or went out with. I know I've not been a good girlfriend to you this past few weeks. And I'm sorry. If I could change things, I would. But I can't. Things are happening and I'm not okay. If only you knew all the shit I'm going through right now, maybe you'd understand. Im not making up excuses or letting you down on purpose. I'm just going through a really, really tough time right now. I just need you to understand. You asked me that day if I really love you. If I don't, why would I even bother about this. You mean everything to me okay. And the fact that I'm starting to lose everything I have now, scares me because I don't ever wanna lose you. I'm sorry.
P.S//Yes, I ♥ you.
Just, don't give up on me yet.
It's time to get my blog updated. Oh well, stop asking me how's Os.
