Monday, September 1, 2008
It's 10.07 a.m and I still can't get to bed. I do not have enough sleep as I slept at around 2.30 a.m and was awaken by my mum at 5 a.m to sahur this morning . Today is the first day of fasting month and insyaallah, I will endure and be strong for the entire month. Amin.Boyfy, I can't sleep because I need to apologize to you. I failed you. I never meant to ruin the relationship that meant the world to me. You mean the world to me and now I come to you asking for forgiveness. I don't have a good answer for all the things I've done, but I'm sorry. I know that sorry will never be good enough for all the pain and despair I've caused you, and it will never be. I can never forgive myself for what I've done, nor do I expect you to. I just want you to know that you've touched my life and changed me for the better. I know that I'm not perfect that you even called me names but I know that I don't want to give you up. I have waited too long to hold you in my arms. I know that we belong together. I love you a lot and I know that you know that. I guess I just need to vent and let you know how I feel. Please don't take my venting the wrong way. I do love you and don't want to break up with you. That would just make me even more imperfect than I already am. Once again, I'm sincerely sorry.Love always,your girlfy.
