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Sunday, May 4, 2008

I'm so frustrated. Don't ask me why. Well, I have the feelings lil' nutz is like going to end pretty soon. Or maybe not. I think it's just me. I cannot take the fact where I was being accused for not having ATLEAST a time with my lil nutz babe. Who says that? I just hate to be somewhat a doll to you all. What kind of shit is this? I treat you girls well, but the question keeps asking my heart. Do I really deserve after what I've done? I never knew this would really happened to me. What exactly on earth am I? Somekind of bitches outside whom you girls really knew?

You girls didn't think what I've gone through. I, as a captain of lil' nutz, have gone through alot of shit. Try taking a few seconds to think about it. When you girls did something wrong, the first person who is going to be in deep trouble is me. I never thought you girls will accuse me not spending time with you all. I have a life too. It's not my fault either. You girls were planning everything at a very last minute and you all are mad at me just because of small reason? Hey c'mon. I'm trying my very best to have time with you girls but you all give some shit excuses. Sometimes enough is enough. I know I'm not a good captain to you all.

One of my lil' nutz babe:
u may hate me after wat im gona say here..
Me:
???
One of my lil' nutz babe:
irah i never thought tat i will have a conflict wif u.ive always see as my ultimate best fren.yet nw im out of words...i hope u have fun tis past two saturdays tt u spent time wif him.. n i hope both of u last long..its been a long time i spent time wif all my lil nutz n especially u e crazy one...u've been bz wif studies n ofcoz spending time wif him.
One of my lil' nutz babe:
no offence but u nvr spare a time wif us..ive been keeping my heart shut nt to hurt u but its been goin n i just cant bare it..u always create a thousand n one reason wen u r out wif ayie...remember tat time wen we got a show n u nvr cum for prac n i keep my heart shut just not to spoilt ur date..if i were to start over again i think i will make a book out of it..
Me:
hey u know what? i nvr hate my lil nutz babe.. never in my life siia i will hate u girls.. try take a few min to think.. last week, i had a promise with him alrd and he booked the ticket alrd. so i cannot just cancel the plan right. so i was asking you girls how about on sunday which is the last sunday and you girls were like alaa.. sighing here and there. then i thought oh okay..
Me:
so i was thinking how about next saturday which is yesterday.
Me:
then you girls were like saying alaa.. exam here and there. so come to a conclusion. i was the one who really wants to go out with u all but krg jerr yg tanak..
Me:
so i had no plans yesterday and go out with him.
Me:
ayie even ask me whether i had a plan yesterday. abeyy krg tk plan apape so we last min go out.
Me:
soo yahh.. just think iqah..
One of my lil' nutz babe:
ira ive been waitin to c u spending time wif us..but sumtimes.......im just donno wat to say..remember last week wen u went out wif him n i was so upset but yet i just forget it i let u decide n yes u went to him..n u said tat tats e last time u gona spent time wif him coz he is workin n u r busy wif studies n yesterday u got to spent time wif him n got to see him??
One of my lil' nutz babe:
u want me to think ?? i think ira i do think...did i ever stop u from goin out wif him wen there is prac..be it e zoo..show for e smoking n wateve..i do think ira..i dont just blast everyting out without any reasons..i think ive been keeping my eyes close just to see u happy wif him n not letting him hurt u n seeing u cry...
Me:
ohkayy. he told me that way but last minute he didnt work yesterday. yes you might be thinking that i wanna bullshit here and there. but hey cmon laa. i got no time to lie. since lil nutz is having a conflict between each other, might as well i had a date with him. krg tk pernah piker the one who makes everything going upside down is u. u will hate me wen i tell u this.
One of my lil nutz babe:
i no need to tell me i knw i myself..
Me:
frankly speaking, ur attitude suck. try asking the other lil nutz babe. they were thinking the same way too. they were complaining to me. u know tt
Me:
?
One of my lil' nutz babe:
all..?? i think its u ida iza n riza hu says tat abt me..
Me:
so i dun wann to see u hurt, i keep my mouth shut u know tt? hey.. dun anyhow burst out. try asking nadyra murni and diana too.
Me:
i think u nvr realise a single thing.
One of my lil' nutz babe:
ira i realise since day one..i knw my attitude sucks u don have to say it i can see it since day 1...
Me:
just think for a second. ppl have a life too. if u wan ppl to spend time with u, dun ever show a single attitude. bcus ppl will start to hate u.
Me:
so what the hell are u waiting for? change!
One of my lil' nutz babe:
wat ppl wana say abt me i dont mind cos my family even says tat go ahead..even god knows it cos HE created me to be tis way..
One of my lil' nutz babe:
u ask me to change ..u urself should change ira...
One of my lil' nutz babe:
u should change too...nt only me u ..i think its all e original lil nutz
Me:
god didnt create u tt way. allah tuu pon tk menggalakkn manusia jadi mcm gituu.. itu sume prangai syaitan. allah ituu lebih suke org yg bersabar.
Me:
im not changing bcus i fckuing shit didnt change at all.
One of my lil' nutz babe:
saba..u talking abt saba..
Me:
it's u. bcus of u, everything went chaos.
One of my lil' nutz babe:
aku saba tk selame ni ape da jadi kt lil nutz,,aku saba tk,,aku nangis tk wats goin on in e grp...??
Me:
u know tt, if u have the patience in u, i dun think it will happen this way.
One of my lil' nutz babe:
don b e next jamil la..aku tk maki kau
One of my lil' nutz babe:
patience..ira sometings just get on ppls nerve n wen tat nerves is really too much i think ppl will ofcoz blast
Me:
BCUS OF UR ATTITUDE, PPL STARTED TO HATE LIL NUTZ. aku kalao gyni ponn da mls nk jadie lil nutz. kau da jadi mcm next jamyl pon. last week, kao da maki2 kite sume. kao piker ape? yg lain sume nk ckp baleq tapiie tkt.. aku pon tanak ckp pape. kao da maki kite mcm anjing kaoo.
Me:
kao tk piker
Me:
then me
Me:
?
Me:
nvr think? it's bcus u dun have time to spend with ur boy and u blame everything on lil nutz?
One of my lil' nutz babe:
eh..kau ckp ppl hate lil nutz bcoz of aku..eh pikir btol2 la..
Me:
wth iqahh! wake up laa ehh
One of my lil' nutz babe:
ira kadang2 aku out of words talking abt u
One of my lil' nutz babe:
if u are saying tat PEOPLE hate lil nutz bcoz of MY attitude say e proof
Me:
up to u uhh.. u just nvr realise. i think when u grow old and u're not with lil nutz anymore, then i think u started to think.
One of my lil' nutz babe:
or lil nutz is just not good where we r nt good dncers n nt expose to outside world..
One of my lil' nutz babe:
now ur pissed wif me..im ok wif it..but wat i knw im just saying in a nice way n yet u wana maki aku..
One of my lil' nutz babe:
u think im gona leave e crew just a single snap..i don think so
One of my lil' nutz babe:
sometimes wat i try to help u all..its just..
One of my lil' nutz babe:
u may tell to all e lil nutz wat just happen..n let em hate me more..tats wat u all always do go ahead..
Me:
up to u laa. haiz. start to grow up and think beyond the circle alright.
Me:
dont just think about urself.
One of my lil' nutz babe:
ok ira i'll listen to u i'll grow up
One of my lil' nutz babe:
n dont just tink abt my stupid hilarious life tat i have..i knw u all have a wonderful life..families n love ones..so i'll better tink abt tat too..tanx ira..tanx
One of my lil' nutz babe:
u have wake my soul ..tank u ira..n i do mean it
One of my lil' nutz babe:
n ira..i'll accept tat outside people out there hate lil nutz just because of one person tat ruined everyting only one..tats me..i'll accept it .

Fine. I think the best way is to step down from being the Lil nutz captain and let someone take over my place. Yes, I'm useless. Happy? I'M NOT TRUTHFUL TO LIL' NUTZ! That's what you want to say right. You girls don't want to see my face anymore right? Fine. I'm out. Enough words.