Yours Truly, xoxo.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Awakened by the alarm clock ringing on my cellphone, I lie on my bed, head rested on my pink pillow oblivious to my surroundings. I reached for my phone, checked out the time and it's only 0604am in the morning. I glanced out the window and everything seemed so still. No kids, no parents, no cars, nothing. I went back to bed, hoping I could fall asleep again but I was wide awake. It sucks when you've been force to drag yourself out of bed since there's mother tongue intensive and I shouldn't miss it as Mt O-level is drawing near. This is what I hate mostly about going to school, other than crapping of course. Not that I miss school anyway. School sucks.

The weather is bloody hot today. Actually, it's getting hot everyday, but it felt especially hot today. And maybe it's just my imagination, but the aircons in library are suddenly not working very well. Ah bollocks. I won't be surprised if I started seeing mirages of ice cream sundaes and chocolate milkshakes in the middle of the parade square. Gah, yes, it's that hot. It's like a frigging heatwave, but unfortunately it's not going to be over anytime soon. Can people stop wasting paper?! And can I get off the bloody computer soon? Granted, saving paper is a tiny bit, and besides, it's not like saving paper now can reverse any effects of global warming. Still, imagine what the heat would be like ten years down the road. Yes, bugger isn't it.

Semester one is nearly over, and we are approaching our very first O-Level paper. Stressing shit, I know. In preparation, we are having intensive malay lessons everyday after school. Genius, yeah? I swear, Cikgu Mas is the most patient teacher ever. We can probably start crapping in the middle of the lesson and she would say something like "Ada orang tak beri perhatian, tolong berikan perhatian, ini penting untuk kamu, bukan saya." Which loosely translated means some people are not paying attention and they should cause it is for our own good. Cikgu Mas is awesome, man.

Babylove, I got your messages you sent to me all this while. I’ve just got to say that you are wrong. You will not just fade away from me. Not now, not ever. That is why I still wear your ring. Even though our relationship has changed, my link with you still remains as strong as ever. Sometimes I'm kind of scared to think of you because your heart tells me that we're impossible. I've tried many ways to forget the evil side of you and stop all the pestering that makes you mad. But the more I have try, the feeling become stronger each day because I know I'm serious about you. When you're not around, I feel sad and worry. I feel I'm loosing something important. However, do you know that I'm never tired of looking at your pictures, reading your messages that you've written to me. All of these things keep me so happy and feeling so calmed and blessed that I have truly found the one person that I want to spend eternity with. You are the only person on earth that has ever been able to calm me down when I get worked up. I could have a crappy day at school, but at night when I get to talk and think of you, you lift my gloomy spirits. You never makes me feel like I can have a bad day, and that is so uplifting to me. Sometimes, talking to you makes my day great. Please, I'm begging you. Don't leave me without a valid reason. Stop thinking that I don't love you like before. Yes, the love I've given you is still the same baby. Trust me. Don't ever said the word 'BREAK'. Never; because I will never listen. Love you always.