Infact, furious is not how I feel right now. What's the word which describes feeling beyond furious? I cannot stand this. Simply because pressure's not my cup of coffee. And sometimes when people don't try to understand your situation and adds much more to what you're already facing, you feel like going to some place quiet and silent, observing the sea waves maybe. Sometimes I feel like I need a husband. Especially when you have to taste the bitter words. And more pressure. Sometimes life suck and apparantly, people just have to make it even more suck-ier. Need I say more?
I've been tortured everyday in class. I'm suffering. Despite the 'trying-hard-enough-to-stay-awake' during class, my friends are abusing me. Yeah. That's the word. And I mean, abuse. Shidee has been so mean to me. Not suprising. You know, like you just feel like breaking his face? Yeah. He annoys me THAT much. It's like his life-long mission. And this is only the beginning. Not only him. Khairul, the 'goodygoody president of the school prefect', tortures me too. Suprised? I knew long ago that he was never nice. He is equivalent to Akif. I feel like breaking his legs this time. Oh. Shaa does the same thing as them too. Aren't I the saddest girl alive? Laughs. Oh wth.
Why the heck am I telling you guys all these? -_-
School holiday is tomorrow! They should really stop calling holidays, holiday. Because it's not even called holidays if there's piles and piles of assignments to complete. And I'm talking about all the subjects. One subject, about 2 to 3 sets of worksheets. Urghh. Enough words.
I'm basically at home, mugging. So now I'm finally mugging for Combined Science. Sigh. Can all this be over with the blink of an eye? You know what people? I fluggery miss my lower sec life. Everything about it just makes me wanna go running back to the hysterical past that I can't go back too. The doors of the past are locked and I can't find the keys. I miss the times when I get free detentions and naggings due to breaking of school rules. The fun and joy of the feeling makes you feel extremely contented somehow. Sigh. I'm sighing so much now. And I miss when we don't have to worry about exams. I mean, we still have to worry, but not to the extent you go crazy. Laughs.
To my Lil' Nutz dearests,
Everything did not went down the drain. Our friendship did not end there. It never did. We're not drifting away. We will never be. The vow mean something to us. It did and always be. I miss us. I always have. Trust me. I love you girls and always will. One day, it will bring back all the memories we thought we lost, all the good times that we thought has ended. We will bring that back. Everything will be back to normal. We'll be like how we used to be. I promise you this. Our friendship has not ended. This is just the beginning. Got it?
i love us!
To my baby love,
Another busy day again lies in front of us. And it makes me sadknowing that we won't be side by side to face everything that will come our way. Though we are apart, my mind is always with you. Thinking of you. Imagining that you are just here beside me. So near that I could just reach you and hold you, hug you and kiss you. All I wish is that I could always be there by your side whenever you need me or even if you don't, I want to make you smile whenever you feel down. I want to be there to massage you, when you feel stressed. I want to be there to feed you when you can't eat because you're busy. I want to be there when you need a shoulder to lean on. I want to be there to tell you how romantic you are despite being so haggard and all messed up and to fight for you when someone is putting you down. All I want is to be there all the time, anytime for you. I am waiting and hoping and wishing for the time, when we can be together again! I Miss You and I really do!
Oh, I shall end now. Bye for now, readers!
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