Dear Sweet boyfriend,
I'm not quite sure where to begin; I know this past week has been a mess, both our faults, I'm not just directing that to you. I have had ten million things run through my mind the past few days, and I am going to try and get a few of them out right now. Another chances given to you. Please treasure it. Once it was repeated, I swear I'm not going to turn back and look at you.
For one, I do cherish our relationship, like I said in one of my messages, you and I have shared things and conversations about our lives, our families that I would never with anyone else. The main reason for that is because I trust you, and you listen to me, as I do to you. I can say that I have had some of the most wonderful times with you that I have ever had in my entire life, so much laughing and smiling. I had told you once before that when you talk I hold onto every word that comes out of your mouth and it's like they are engraved in the back of my mind forever. I can't answer why you have that affect on me; maybe it's the fact that we have become so close. To be quite honest with you, I don't trust people very easily as you very well know, and I could probably say the same for you. I think that is why I did let that wall down and let you into my life and my heart, because I felt safe, so let me ask you, why do I feel like building it back up?
You tell me how important it is to you to have me in your life, as what? Then you say that if I found someone that makes me happy, you don't want to hold me back from that. Don't you understand that I am happy with you? So when you say things like that it confuses me. I'm not sure how you differentiate between a relationship and friendship. So, I am going to tell you how I personally separate the two of them: for one I don't spend the weekends with my friends, holding them, talking to them, being intimate, that's just not me (nor is it a friendly relationship), it never has been and never will be. I think the things that we've shared (and again this is me thinking - you might disagree), the things that have been between you and I have been very special to me. They go beyond friendship.
So, please treasure it. Change for the better, Ayiera. We're going to continue our relationship. 160907 will always be there with us. Remember, last chance given.
