Dear Az-dzaahiir,
I really had a sleepless night,
moving here and there on my bed and thinking about what happen to us that night.
I least expected it,
I experienced the worst headache ever,
all I could hear was my heart beating much faster than it ever has.
I cursed my stars that night,
as my expectation for the night was so much greater,
but it ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for.
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We all made mistakes not trying to understand each other,
some words did hurt in some way
and I guess we got carried away after all those arguments of whether truly I am too busy with my own stuff.
I guess this issue has always been the stand block of our relationship getting worked out.
I know it's been hard for you trying to understand the real truth.
Perhaps I need to give you a chance to find out for yourself whether what I'm trying to make you understand is the real truth or not.
Trust is very important,
especially in a new and an up-coming relationship,
and so I have no objection about you finding out the fact about whether I am a dancer & dancer has all the priority to get busy everyday.
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I know we both said so many things to each other that we least expected,
trying to find out the truth about something,
it's really hard and needs much time,
but I guess I got carried away by saying those words to you.
Whether you accept my apology or not,
I'm truly sorry for my harsh and unpleasant words.
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Perhaps this is the chance for us to experience the passion in each other.
The most important thing is that this is not our first love experience
and one thing we must understand is that,
in every relationship, whether old or new,
we're sure to experience some problems
but it's up to us to solve them.
These are some of the things that might break our warm friendship
and everything we are planning ahead of us.
We need to understand each other
and try to have the trust that will make this relationship work.
I know you want this to work as much as I do
and I still have my hopes up,
never giving up on you.
Let me tell you this thing that I believe in a real relationship:
"It doesn't take beauty to make a relationship but the heart and the mind."
I know what I've seen in you and have a special reason of choosing you.
Your perception about girls is really not correct,
girls are never the same,
maybe some times you might think we think alike but the heart shows all the difference.
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For now, I know sorry is just a word,
but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you last night.
You caused me pains too
but I'm really confused about everything.
I much want things to be stable
and that you get all the time you need to make your decision.
I love you so much and never will I think that I can forget you.
Hope to hear from you...
I remain yours ....
Love always,
Athirah
