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Saturday, May 19, 2007

sorry for the late post. been busy with my dance practice n stuff. n guess wad? i got my exam result tis week. i received all papers except for mother tongue, chemistry and social studies. fcuk. all i can say is tt i really done veri badly for my mid-year exam. i failed most of the subjects especially geography. wanna guess how much i gt? haha. u will be shocked to hell if i tell ue tis. yeaps2. not kidding. well. i received my maths paper first. i passed my paper 2. but my paper 1 make miie failed everything. fcuk seii. toldcha no tyme to finish the paper 1. n i gt 45/100. 5 more marks man. denn i received my geography paper. geography was really bad. i dunnoe how to say. but i get 2nd lowest in class. can ue imagine tt i really get 1/50? it was damn bad. i couldnt even imagine how bad my mark was. it was all map reading's fault. fcuk siia. soo the lowest marks was 0. haha. i was lyke wtf. denn i received my english paper. i was lucky for english. i passed my english but it was botherline. i gt 51. holycrap. how can tt be? i failed my paper 2 but i passed my paper 1. soo thnks to my paper 1. haha. received my physics paper. as per normal, i failed again. it was just a few more marks to pass. i gt 27/65. haiyoo. this is the consequences if i study last min. urrgh. & i failed my poa too. i gt 43/100 for my poa. abit more girl. wad happen? used to be top students for sec 1 n sec 2. tts because i've competed with the normal acad's students. but tis year was soo different. need to compete with express students. HELL NO. how could tt be? i thot i could cope express standard but it was way too difficult n the pace was damn fast. i could not catch up. summore im taking o-level next year. im not ready. god. help miie. i feel lyke i wanna drop n/a back. but something stopping miie to stay on to express stream. i wanna really get out from tt stupid idiot school as soon as possible. i dun wan to stay long. teachers n especially the discipline master kept on observing n spotting miie just bcus of small matters. stupid teachers. i really wanna get out of tt school as fast as possible. i dun heck care. school sucks big tymes for miie. especially the school rules. it makes miee wanna stop schooling. urrgh. but i cant cope with express standard. soo how? i really gt no idea. shud i stay on to express standard n buck up tis tyme? or shud i just drop back to n/a? wad shud i do? god, pls give miie an answer.

now i failed most of the subjects. soo far, i just pass my english. but tt was lucky. 51 marks. duh. soo i'll not be joining the mediacorp thingy i guess. i badly wanna join the hollaback crew. urggh. but tis is a veri big lesson for miie. guess i need to stop dancing in term 4 n concentrate on my end of year exam. i really wanna have early preparation soo tt i will not repeat the stupid mistake again. if i still stay on to express stream, i will not be dancing until i finished my o-level exam. im not talking crap ryte now. im serious. n ofcause i really need a tutor to guide miie throughout my journey. im kinda slow in studies sometymes. especially wen teachers need to rush everything to cover every chpters n topics. urgggh. i tiink now it's the tyme for miie to get stress up n everything. be prepared atyra.

today was suck. adam told us today have practice at 9 till 11 or 12. adam couldn't make it as he gt paper today. soo alan was suppose to be incharge today. but since aisyah cant attend the practice, alan trying to make excuses saying tt he was lazy laa wad laa. it was soo obvious boy. lalala. reached there. sit2. lazy to practice. it was really a waste of tyme if we dun have a full squad. so we sit around. talk crap n everything. tt was wen we're about to go home as it was already 11. but swayy. fauzi came to dome laa seii. den alan n alif oso came down after fauzi called tem. fcuk seii. i was actually trying to prevent myself from getting sticky n sweaty. haiyaa. bad luck laa. summore competition is next week. bet tt we couldn't make it through the next round. haha. soo gd luck to my group ayte. im not a responsible captain siia. haha. den we practice until 12 plus. sit around in the kfc to feel the aircon. soo fresh. aahhhh. den my hp beep. iqah called miie saying tt adam sae tt prac will be resume at 2.30 till 5. is he mad or wad? we just finish practicing. duhh. uurggh. iwasfcukiingfedup. tis is not fair. since it was a few hours more to 2.30, mie n izza go to idah's house to watch movie title 'bangku kosong'. woah. it was freaaking scary siia. den her mum cook for us. popcorn chicken n hot dogs. it smells good. yummy2. i ate quite alot laa. soo freaakiing hungry. didnt eat from morning. atlast we didnt finish it. haha. burrp. im fulled. thnks idah's mummy.

get out from idah's house at 2.15 since the moviie finished at 2.10 i guess. we were rushiing going to dome. den having a tough practice just now. urrgh. adam really make sure every details was correct n syncronise. i was freaakiing tired. supposed to have practice today at 8. but practice was cancel due to afternoon tough practice just now. soo tomorow im having practice early in the morning at 8.30am. fcuk seii. summore tomorow was full-dress. shit. i havent buy panty hose. im freaaking dead. guess later i will buy or ask my mum to buy for miie. soo tired laa seii. my body was weak. hope i'll not fall ill. competition is next sunday. soo be prepared to have tough trainings next week before the competition.

miss hym soo much. it was nearly 1 week i didnt get to meet hym. where the hell is he? he's busy now. he didnt contact miie lyke he used to. he was busy after he gt a job. glad for hym but he's kinda change. did he forget miie? i noe he's busy but why is he trying to avoid miie? did i do anything wrong? even in msn, he didnt chat with mie lyke he used to. im sad. oh god. he's changed. he was not the old hym. i miss the old cumi-cumi. i dun tink he love miie anymore. nope. i shoudn't tink negative. but i really have to. i cannot take it oredy. he's totally different now. but i have to accept the fact. he's busy now. soo why the hell do ue interrupting ppl's lyfe atyra? u're making ppl's lyfe difficult. soo just get the hell out of hys lyfe. he's not urs animore. but wadever it is, my love for hym is getting deeper n deeper. soo remember boi. i will remember you in my heart but not in my mind cause mind will easily forget but heart will always be forever. soo i will not contact ue anymore until u're the one who will be contacting miie. never in my lyfe will i press my hp button n contact ue. soo i will always wait for ur calls n msgs. im not tinking negative boi but everything has been proved. u're different now babe. u're not the oldYOU. miss the old cumi-cumi. youaretotallydifferent. :(